Hmm...i dunno, it sucks to look back at things while you still have difficulties catching up with time. the time just get shorter as you grow older. i remember i use to complain that december holidays were too long when i was in primary school. how ridiculous is that huh....

Last gathering event of 2005: ok, last night was sherilyn's farewell party with the dysfunctional family. well, i think this isnt just a farewell for sherry but also farewell to everyone in the family. seriously, after last night's gathering, all of us will be pursuing all the different things in life on ourself. so yea, we still have to part somehow. but on the brighter side, it was fun. a real shock and surprise for sherry i guess. strange how the whole world knows that there is a surprise party except for her huh....got to be more observant in the future k haha....but well hope you have enjoyed it.

Last major event of 2005: today's the 29th wedding anniversary of my parents, so we gonna dine out tonight. 29 years, its a long way you know. isnt easy at all, all the things they have been through with my bro and i as a family, without them, definitely there will not be me nor my brother. thanx for everything as parents, you really did a great job, really glorified the purpose of marriage and task of marriage.

oh wells, before you know it then it will be the new years time then school starts. haha another shock huh for everyone right. kk i think its time to pack up and conclude for this holiday and prepare myself for sch starts. its gonna be another marathon, another huge obstacle to overcome. then before you know, 16th january will come, and life gonna be different again. alrighty, i just place all these worries onto God yea, cos he will handle it for me. for now i just want to continue smiling and enter the new year with a new heart :)

hohoho....merry christmas!!!

kk today went for church for service then went orchard to lunch and shop haha....now guys u have to shop only on christmas because there is end-of-season sales which has much more to offer than pre-season sales haha...yep...then i think i saw a dream car of mine. saw this toyota jeep like car...gosh...i hardly find family car that is actually taller than me! yep wanted to take a picture of it but well better not, dont want to invite troubles. well, definitely i will work towards the future...

okok now got to back track abit to the chalet. hee, definitely i think overall it is real nice, especially amongst the peeps of bungalow 15. yep we had a fun time really. but it was too short really...just have this feeling that i never want it to end. was having some sidetrack thoughts you know. like if i can add a car of my own there.hee....then the bungalow belongs to me...hehe...then me and my wife are there....hehe...then having fun with all the friends hehe....gosh that is really THE future you know.

and as i always say, zhong yu works hard for it to come true!!

oh well, dreams come true right if you dare to dream about it and i believe i've got the ability as well...so just wait and see...hee...

anyway really, towards the end there are few things that joyce said that really hit my heart.

1. before we step out of the bungalow lazing around, she said to sherry,"aiyah, really dont want you to leave you know."
i gave a huge sigh, yep really dont want you to leave but well theres nothing much that we can do but just to treasure the remaining time we have left. really dont forget us you know as the years go by....

2. afterwards when we all stepped out of the bungalow, joyce said to me again,"haiz, your 6 years ends here...." yep it definitely ended there and also i guess a pretty nice way to bade goodbye to my snyo career. 6 years with friends coming and leaving, but i really never made much effort to retain them in my life and all. just there were great buddies like edward, jonathan ong, hoe yong, matthew harkness, duana, isabelle and many batches infront all the way back till year 1999 when i joined the main orchestra, it was really the turning point of my life. and of course, the one and good old andris and gipson who basically grew up with me in the orchestra. the 3 pri 5 who were almost in the main orchestra since 1999. gosh 6 years, its been alot. the up and downs in the orchestra, the transition, we all witnessed it together. really thank you all guys.

and a nice way to end everything, we took a very nice picture outside the bungalow.



yep, definitely i will take all the effort to retain both of you girls in my life, especially you...yea YOU. both of you came and made really nice impact on it. yep definitely because...

You girls rocked my world...

2 years ago...

i signed up for friendster but it is never to my liking, lags like crazy, never liked the concept like isnt it another type of mirc where you just hook up friends you dont know from the net.

2 years later...

hey i found a couple of my long-lost friends. dang really missed them. added them and sent them a message. hmm really miss these people man. especially kukuh, hey if you ever come across my message on friendster must reply k? really really miss you tons. so ok, now friendster do has its charm. ;)

yep kukuh is a friend that i will never forget, helped me alot for my last 2 years in VS, advice on studies, adivce on life, he definitely taught me alot alot. but after Os, he went back to indonesia and from then on, i hardly heard about him. hmm...memories flooding back. hee, yea kukuh, you sure rocked....

oh wells, some similar scenario gonna repeat itself soon. a nice friend is definitely gonna be missed too. haiz...why must life be this way man....

PS: well, something which i discovered. i reached another level of maturity in life. saw many things that happened over this past year in a different view. re-understood alot of things. thanx Lord for the enlighten, i start to smile from my heart again.....i fell badly once, but i stood up again, learned from mistakes and carried on. and it is definitely a load off from the heart. whee...finally!!! whee....

fond memories then....

hee...post bbq thoughts:

1. its nice.

2. its tiring, cos i have to do a lot of fanning and cooking.

3. after the whole thing, i realized i ate only 1 chicken wing, 1 otah, fried rice and bee hoon only. the rest is just wondering around but anyways happens every bbq.

4. 2 guys including me and the rest girls, hmm well, things were still done properly, phew...

5. Savannah Condo Park is a nice place. proud of my bro, proud of the place.

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yea... in my eyes, there's only you, dont think anyone can replace you. hee...

i think certain things, after time, it becomes coated with layers and layers of something called determination. if it takes even a longer time, i think the coating will get even thicker. seriously, i dunno why, but after all these while, i just know my determination is stronger than ever.

this is zhong yu, this is me, this is my life..... ;)

hmm...i had this impulse to just explode. cant take it anymore, cos i feel that it is killing me anyway. hmm am i talking any sense again ?

kk back to me, anyway looking at the calender, i got a real shock. hols ending real soon. 2 things that i dread the most is for school to start. the next is ... well i shant talk about it here. anyways, yea i certainly do hope that it will never end, but again is it too evil to just wander your life away this way. yep look towards the future, dream big and do big. im sure things will get better and views will get clearer because the sky is always there for you, and Lord will be looking upon you.

yep. theres alot of other meaningful things to think about yea... :)

finished "The five people you meet in heaven" by mitch albom.

finished 3-D trigo online lecture.

finished studying computing theory.

all in a day. but how come there is so much time? i wonder. but somethings i must know. because some things have changed and it never will be the same as it was when it started the previous christmas. my feelings just stoned, sealed. i wouldnt want anything for now. i wouldnt want anything for christmas anymore. because what i hoped and prayed for never came, so whats the point then? i place my faith in God and the rest i just follow and hope to see the final piece of the jigsaw puzzle to be placed neatly for me.

yep. Growing up sucks and i wish i'd be like the little boy next door, jumping and hoping around, smiling from the heart...

oh yes... early season's greeting...something i came up with .... have fun ....

one of the worst saturdays....

yep...nothing really good happened the moment i wake up until now.

for no reason, the antique glass ornament covering the antique lamp in my mum's room just dropped and shattered...

no one is in a good mood after that, very precious thingie...

then some personal stuff cropped up, the day got even worst. wouldnt want to talk too much about it.

going out to check out my bro's condo later.

gonna cross bridges, tt is no jay walking today. gonna be careful, make sure all cars stopped when the red light is up. cos just so conincidentaly there might be people who got drunk late morning or early afternoon.

gonna pray hard for myself before i step out of my house. make sure the gas stove is switched off, the door is properly locked.

not gonna talk much today lest i offend my mum or my dad later, both not in good mood.

yep all in all this is not my day...

piss off....

like wad people always do... i will just sit there and mumble in chinese yea... suan le ....

i laugh at my own stupidity, cos zhong yu always fail...

i laugh at my own foolishness, cos zhong yu always get cheated....

i laugh at my own down right utter stupidity, bcos people never gave me any promises...

i laugh at all the efforts i put in, bcos it simply means nothing...

i laugh at myself, simply i din build any good memories...or rather i din know how to?

i laugh at this 17 years of living, bcos i simply miss out too much...

i laugh....

i dun really know what has struck me... but its really foolish of me... really foolish of me... yep...

i laugh.....

k...time for some serious work...

first thing first....

im starting my revising le...but err...too much holidays really make your brain rusty....real rusty.

second one....

im still as busy as ever, but still enjoying it....

third one....

i suppose to be creative, but how to, when i cant draw properly in real life and now i have to draw in a comp?

fourth one....

definitely life is still as simple as ever and im planning to keep it this way really...

fifth one....

i will wait for this one to come....REAL SOON....

but again im asking, how soon is soon?

sixth one....

i've been talking too much crap le....

bye....