hah....promos in 2 days time....in the midst of all the stress....there is still time for peace, serenity, joy, happiness in cultivation...



love you always.... :)

"he is forsaken by the one in whom he had reposed all his trust..."

heh...impressive stuff....

as of lately, i have been taking random pictures of my surroundings and all. i find it strange because sometimes i find the things i always see in my surrounding rather distant and unknown to me. like there is this strong sense of deja vu lingering in my head now and then to things i usually do see in my daily life. maybe it is due to stress. maybe it is something else...but in any circumstances, i hope to revert to my old self after exams...yep

心恢了，意冷了。

別無所求，隻希望得到永遠的快樂。

因為今生，隻可以有一個你。

因為我還相信

金誠所志，金石為開．．．

hmmm...moments of inspiration haha...not been using chinese for a long time. hee....

sunday with alot of blessings...

yep grace to the God. today is a nice day. spent half of my day in the new Savanna Condo Park today. they just attained their TOP today yep. so here we are the entire family was down to have a look at their showflats. impressive design i have to say. the planning of each unit is nice. the compound of the condo follows closely to the theme of Savanna. which is awesome. the whole place is very spacious with very nice garden area with fake mountain caves and stuff decorated with bronze statues of giraffe, elephants and hippos. really nice.

then after much negotiations throughout the entire afternoon. a deal is made. my brother and sister-in-law decided on one of the units. yep, this is a family effort in helping my brother and sis-in-law to find a new house for this pair of loving couple who will be marrying soon. :) yep...grace to the God. looking at all of these, i just cant help but be very of envious of my brother. ok hes got a new car, now a new house, a nice and decent job and a nice wife. yep really cant help it but feel that he has accomplished alot at his point of life. then i was thinking, what he is exactly doing now is actually my goal of life. yep. A nice wife, a decent and nice job, a condo, a car. hmm...dont really know what to say. but i hope in time to come when i reached this point of life, i would be able to achieve all these or even be better than my brother. haha yep...so yea since i have a clear direction of how and what my life should be, i will definitely work hard towards it. so back to my lecture notes for preparation for promos because this is where i begin fighting for it :)

It is because I am Zhong Yu, I know I can do it.

Was browsing through the channels i have on SCV during my lunch time break. fingers fall nicely on the buttons to press a '1' then following up closely with a '6'. there i landed on Discovery Travel and Living again. one of my favourite channels yep. hee. it was the usual Ian Wright show but somehow the place he was introducing today just look so so so familiar. yes it is Vienna....

Memories flooded back really. It is such pleasure to watch Vienna in MOTION again. Places which i have visited with my dearest friends all came into motion AGAIN. ok then Vienna was not enough really, Ian Wright actually brought me to Salzburg. Again it is all the familiar sceneries. It touches the heart really. Though the people are not in the motion but somehow all the stuff we did together in Vienna and Salzburg and all just begin to form itself again within the TV screen again. I smiled...this has been a very long time since i smiled from the bottom of my heart. The joy of everything that i gained from this Vienna trip just could not stop me from smiling. Then yea again, i remembered that i spent my brithday in Vienna this year also, which makes everything even more unforgettable.

Love ya, Vienna.
Love ya, Ian Wright
Love ya, Discovery Travel & Living.

Love ya all, members of the Dysfunctional Family

Salzburg'05

thursday again...and its still raining. hee...nice to hear that VS got back to band 1 which is amongst the top 10 schools in Singapore again. yea frankly speaking this is where we really belong. for everything that i know, i have done my best for you and kept her flag unfurled...just as what Mr Maran always say,"Guys the school has put in everything in your batch in the hope that you guys will bring us back to where we are in the past." and 4 years down the road we truely stand up bravely to tell the world that VS is not the fallen force anymore. Still remember the uber low school moral when we were nearly out of the top 20 secondary schools in Singapore. yep its been comforting that our hard work did pay off.

moving on, now that i am in VJC, it is life of total different story. the pressure to uphold the school reputation is every stronger.
hmm just a side note this is the stress that well many of us are going through...:)

haha well the formula to get 4As for promos....hehe


some post lecture recreational activities that S64 guys never fail to indulge in.... :)


well thats all, keep smiling and all the best for promos.

its been nice. yea, something like what old ninjas has attained. Peace of the mind. Calm in the heart. but somehow my heart is kinda dead. no more emotional feelings. is it something bad for me? haiz...

anyway somehow in the same time, i have a surge of confidence for the future simply because i have no more fear for it. nothing can be worse than what i am going through now really. and i am actually smiling it away. brave of me huh...

hmmm...been hooked on JJ lin's song lately...it has been accompanying me through all the revision periods... find this particular song rather meaningful, because it just leaves such a nice after effect on me after listening it.

heres the lyrics:

一九四三世界大战
阿嬷年轻的时候
爷爷爱他那么多
他们感情很深
但是爷爷身负重任
就在离乡的那夜
给了阿嬷一个吻
轻声说到

Chorus:
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

夕阳西下鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道

hee yep...lyrics is nice, song is nice, voice is noice. you cant find any other song like this. lyrics is somehow simple but the way he portrayed the unchanging love of the older generation is something we can never find now in our current society where relationship is just so messy and complicated now. times has changed but the song successfully captured what all of us are missing right now. it might be a culture to follow up on the latest trend in fashion, technology and even love. but maybe we should learn to slow down and observe, isnt it always the best to have a slow and steady progress that will last you forever? the so-called bubble society we indulge in really reflects how moral has devalued over the years. everything that we indulge in is so beautiful and nice as it seems but the time it lasts is just as short as how a bubble last. seen now and gone the next moment. is it time for all of us to wake up?...

what the fuck....yea what the fuck...this is my mood now...

heh yea...today is friday yea.....yesterday was in a bad mood... but yea i think i somehow forgotten what happened yesterday....

no matter what happens....i put my trust on it... hope i wun be disappointed... :) yep...life still moves on...Earth still spins...and no one is gonna stay and tell me what i should do....always the same...

forget the past...treasure the present...work hard for future...

it is because i am Zhong Yu, i know i can do it...

In school now. Hee...stresses over lessons. just finished computing lessons so mighht as well blog. Qing Shen is eating his bread now. Qing Wei is talking to Mohan. okokok.....the S44 peoples are studying for chemistry spa. Shant disturb them haha...

anyway schools been fine for me. except at home where i have to balance between household chores and my studies...hmm...cant help it, mum's allergic to detergent, dads tired, brother's working...yep so i have to do the jobs. i just hope it wun affect me when promos are like reaching soon.


okok school continues to be fun with S64...rocking on....

curiosity kills the cat...curiosity certainly killed me yesterday. i shouldn't have read those stuff really. din sleep well last night and the worst thing is to have woken up early on a saturday morning. arghh...my holidays gone really. well its no use thinking too much. it is another lesson learnt.

forget the past, treasure your present and work hard for your future.

anyway saturday morning specials...i always switch on the TV at 10 am punctually to watch my weekly dosage of Doraemon. actually this is the ONLY cartoon that i watch ever since young. maybe i can sing the song too haha..." min na min na min na"...haha oh wells...maybe this is the only little portion of a kids instinct left on me.



geez...hehe this is what i really enjoy watching on TV. no matter what time slot is it, i will try my best to watch it haha...whee...

hee...Whee...wee...WHEE!!!

yep, thats all i can say.

fri-day....yep it basically fried my day. today isn't really a good day for me to say yep. except for the few hours that i am studying and doing housework chores...you know swept the floor then mop it. sometimes it just gets me wondering, bcos i somehow find joy in doing all these, as in when you are doing all the work you basically do not think through your troubles and stuff... yep just you yourself and your broom and whatsoever that you are holding. sometimes it makes you wonder what life is really about.

hmm apart from this, its the totally unproductive hours spent on the internet. but somehow today's internet stuff totally shocked me in a way or so... maybe i wasn't IT savvy enough in the past to be able to track all these stuff. but now i kinda did it. not that you have to be a pro in computers or what, but it is the way that my brain functions now. a brain with more IT information. i spent almost an hour reading stuff. stuff that doesn't belong to me at all. stuff that is deemed to be lost in what i call internet's lost space. stuff that made me understand what has happened in the past. then all these things that i have read, made me think that i have been going through such a pure life. for these past years, i have to say i have a very clear direction of where i am heading for my future. i have been very rational and logical in everything that i do. i believe in putting my best and total seriousness in everything that i do. but maybe all these things shouldn't be happening to a teenager like me. maybe someone will say that teenage years is how you still enjoy your life when you are in total mess or when you are in total confusion, lost in whatever you think you might be in. but hey, all these things dun seem to be happening to me. simply bcos everything is happening in such a logical way for me. maybe it is bcos i have set myself into a mould that is created by my brother that i clearly know what i should be doing and what i should not. maybe in terms of achievements i have done it. but what about my life?

i still remember Bruce Almighty, where he got this job to be the God. in a simply high tech way. responding to e-mails which are made up of people's prayers. a yes or a no to what they asked for as a responce to their e-mail... sometimes i have been wanting to be in that position, where i can put yes to everything in my life, so i dun need to worry so much...but again maybe i want to put a yes to a request to step backwards into my past and simply press the delete button and start writing my life from that period again. bcos i may want to meet this person earlier or meet that person earlier... do what i deem right to have the best of my life...maybe life would be of absolute different scenario from now. maybe i may want to step into someone else's life and help that person press the delete button. that painful past that may be haunting all of us, no matter what it is, i hope i can just press the delete button and let it go, maybe into God's trash bin...but is tt all just a waste of time day dreaming... bcos there isn't even a delete button in God's e-mail protocol.

oh wells...life is just like that.... definitely i have learnt things from people who just come and go away from my life. learnt more things from people who stayed longer. but is there a picture where you can paint it and make the person you want, to stay in your life permanently? i certainly do hope i can do just that. the one hour that i spent, really gave me a reflection on what i have been doing this year. bcos it has certainly changed me by so much so much. the change of life in a junior college, the vienna trip and all, it just leave me with so much to think of. sometimes i really want to do nothing but just stay there and do nothing but just think of all that has happened...maybe i shouldn't have done certain things and maybe i should have done it... there is alot of "ifs"...but life just go on that fast, where basically it is never possible to change anything.

on a side note, something happened to my dad. i really hope it will never turn out to be serious stuff... but just suddenly i realize that i haven been paying much attention to him for a long time. i must try to make it up somehow, so i will never have any regrets again when it comes to the point again. it leaves me again to put in more effort to retain the people around me to stay in this picture for a good long time and not just come and go without a trace. its time to change...and one last thing which i come across on the net..."maybe it just takes so much to understand a person...but the more you did, the more you regret it? "....

heh...thursday the usual day...cos it never fails to rain... haha snyo day that is. well i promise, it NEVER fails to rain on thursday mornings really. usually i will be having my maths lecture in LT3, then it starts to get colder and colder. well you know, its raining AGAIN...

well, was doing my routine, "Apple" Dailys haha which is the apple webbie... http://www.apple.com/ ... yea boy as a apple fanatic and a real loyal supporter of apple, well you know there isn't any windows operating system in my house, you will know how die hard apple fan i am...inclusive of my family :) ... kk i am hearing "Apple sux!" again...yea go on...i am covering up my ears...but really how much can you pay for style? its priceless...woo...and you know.... kk back to the main topic or else i will be writing non stop maybe for hours about how good macintosh is... haha

but anyways back to the main topic, anyone will get simply turn on by this new product. yes! NEW! PRODUCT! as in you know, apple does it AGAIN!! haha oh gosh IPOD NANO... imagine how sleek and attractive ipod shuffle was when they compare it with candy bars? i just cannot imagine iPod Nano when they are comparing it with this...




geez.... k i gonna start dreaming about it everyday ... really... hurts to turn down a gig last night that is during my promos arghh!!!....but oh well there is a BIG one after promos...maybe i can start to plan to buy it soon, or to save it up for a powerbook, or maybe a Nokia N-series phone...kewl....this is what you call lifestyle? :)

anyway just a sidenote, kinda disappointed with the iTune mobile phone that apple has lauched together with its iPod Nano. In comparison, it really pales out because it is just so NORMAL...simply to say no style at all... i kinda expected something like a iPod cellphone when rumours around the net are saying that apple is launching its first cellphone...but oh well the impression of mine Apple cellphone is totally different from what is launched...so yea din really set my eyes on it...gosh by yep Ipod Nano really served to surprise the Apple die hards...:) in time to come maybe i will sign up as a Apple Developer soon....woo...nice clan to join...:) only when i know i am knowledgeable enough...ok time to go...

hmm... its been amazing how the holidays has progressed...i am truly amazed really. apart from the certain fraction of the day that i spent stoning, you know where you just spare into the blank space infront and thinking of nothing and dun even know that someone is calling you. yea probably that is what i enjoy doing the most these days. its the time where i dun belong to anyone or anything, where i live in my own world that is trouble free, like back in those days in VS and in primary school. bah...

its been strange how i miss my buddies over these holidays. the really typical jokes of ivan, the poser qing shen whom i "bully" almost everyday in school, yong bin who will look for me to spill his troubles over, well maybe mine too, and the usual guru joel who always give sane advice whenever you need it...ah S64... as for zhong min and chen ting haha i saw you guys just a few days ago!

anyway i hope i will be able to finish my cold turkey period. haha not that i am in a drug rehabilitation centre typing my blog. well i think its a mental cycle that i have to escape soon. this cold turkey period really got my mind off it... talking to my mum about it really helps. shes such a great one, where i feel better everyday. its gonna end pretty soon and that is what i am very sure of. well guys, u will notice that i have been coughing non stop... well according to mum its not just a flu or some illness anymore. its got to do with something that affects ur lungs, not bacteria not virus but things that happen around me. ah well... it is 10 30 in the morning now...got to start my cycle again... mugging cycle... u know u know....*winks*...

really wish the emoticon that gwen has is on my comp...really hope to see it everyday...cos it really amuses me... -=p
anyway yea all the best for your violin exam... -=p ... haha

note: life been getting better these days, and a sure thing my cough is getting better too...yep...
(this looks like the lecture notes right? haha maybe i have been spending too much time on it)

hee...Whee...wee...WHEE!!!!

finally after a year plus... i decided to publish my blog... surprise that i've been keeping a blog? been keeping it a secret bcos i have been writing stuff that really concerns about my life...not that i dun have a life anymore...but i think it wouldn't be fun to just keep everything to myself...deleted the previous blog and set up this new one... bcos it is really private stuff...stuff that brought me happiness and sorrow throughout this past year...stuff i have decided to chuck it aside and leave it on internet's lost space....sighz...it is a new start and a new beginning...hope things will be different from now on....