its been nice. yea, something like what old ninjas has attained. Peace of the mind. Calm in the heart. but somehow my heart is kinda dead. no more emotional feelings. is it something bad for me? haiz...

anyway somehow in the same time, i have a surge of confidence for the future simply because i have no more fear for it. nothing can be worse than what i am going through now really. and i am actually smiling it away. brave of me huh...