whoa...ok...snyo quartet ended. finish up the two shifts these two days. next up will be the webbie and other stuff.

got this 16PF personality test. got to say it is a real thorough personality test. reflects accurately of what i am. in fact i might have known it long ago?

something which has been bottling up in me, that is the word respect. sometimes some stuff can just be laughed away really....some stuff cant. shjdfiqhq fdsnsfn fhfiuehfui hfieuhfui nfiuewfn nfieunhfui niunhfifn nfinfirjhihj hniuqwhidn fniwqnf
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kk yep those stuff up there make sense. go figure it out yourself. a series of events that happened today which really shut me down and wake me up that hey what have i been doing all this while. am really wasting time on things that really dun seem to be worthwhile anymore? 3 events was enough to explain everything. yep sometimes i question myself, what do i really get in return for treating people nicely, for giving people the respect they somehow deserved. what i get in return is the attitude of indifference and disrespect. maybe somehow they dun feel anything. but hey sometimes some stuff are really done pretty obvious. i am not transparent, i do have feelings still. and what was done really hurt me lots. i am backing off really. i am too scared to continue what i am doing right now. it was the same in Vienna, it was the same in Singapore. what has really happened i dun really know. but i do know i still deserve that little amount of respect. yea?